A New Week, a New Chapter.

Woke up today feeling a lot better actually, I don't know what it was. Maybe the fact that I hit the gym again for once, or maybe its because I'm finally occupying myself. But maybe its because I realized that no matter how few "true friends" stood by me, they were all helping me a great deal. Hell, even the positive comments made me feel better haha. Hope things continue to look up.

I picked up the guitar again, I stopped playing for so long and I don't even know why, I had even stopped playing the piano. Music is a huge part of my life even though I may not be so fanatic about it, I love all kinds of music. I love the feeling of expression you get from playing.

I've also began my novel study on The Kite Runner, I've heard its a good book but I don't know what to expect. Hopefully it won't be a giant pain to read through, like King Lear was for me. In a way I'm kind of actually enjoying living a simple tech-free life (besides the computer of course, how could I live?) and doing stuff that I never did when I was with her. Of course it always helps that PSN is down and I'm bored of my shooters on the Xbox.

Oh and yeah, these are actually short posts. I plan to blog every day now, so I'm not just going to rant for 10 pages. =)

Cheers.

What now?

After months and months of shit happening to me I think I finally decided what I'm going to do. I don't want any more, any more drama in my life. Maybe that's unavoidable since I'll be going to University this fall, but at least for now I'm going to take a step back.

In retrospect. I lied, a lot. That's the reason why I'm basically going through this now. I started trying to be more and more honest over the last year, but maybe it was too late. To be honest, I'm kind of a loser for not realizing anything for three years. So I guess its time to move on.

Although moving on is basically the last thing I ever want to do, I've basically tried everything else. Hell, I can't even play games anymore because its what she loved the most. I figure I'll just smile, I hate to make people sad anyways hahaha.

One of my favorite songs, very relevant.

Yet, also a lie.

I promise I'll cheer up haha, I'll find some poor sucker to bawl to instead.

Love.

You never know what you've had, what you've loved; until it's gone.

Never let it be too late.

Not trying to be overwhelmingly sad here, just passing some advice. If you listen to me once. Let it be this.