Time to take a trip back to my graduation. The ceremony was by far the happiest moment of my school years, walking onto the stage was basically a dream come true. It felt like I was accepting a Grammy or other such award. That was the basic highlight of my graduation. I didn't attend the Graduation Banquet and Prom, I didn't have the funds. I don't know if I wanted to go, you'd think getting a date would be easy but hell, every single girl who would go with me had someone else or were just friends. You know who I wanted to go with? Alex. But I couldn't, so I didn't go at all.
So where else to go to, but hit the parties. Justine's after-grad at the Wild West nightclub was out of the question. While cheaper than the Banquet, it wasn't much. So the Central Memorial grad party of choice was the one held by friend Kultar. You know when you have the feeling in the pit of your stomach that you shouldn't go because something bad will happen? I feel that all the time, so I just ignored it and went anyways. Also because Anna was tearing off my arm for me to go. So we arrived, fashionably late; well of course I arrived fashionably late, I don't know what the hell Anna was doing. Events of the party were pretty mellow, the guests were a tight knit of the host's friends. I wasn't very much friends with them, I never got over the loss of the old band of friends.
There was drinking, guitar hero, and drinking games. The equation for a house party, of course the guests didn't exactly make it scream 'jumping' but it was pretty fun for a small gathering. The guests to note however, were Erin (whom you should know from previous posts) and her new boyfriend. Say what? You say you hear jealousy? Far from it. No ex-girlfriend has ever dated one of my other friends. Now what I feared from the beginning had happened, she would talk about me and surprise surprise, new guy takes it badly and says "No Way". Then what happens but the cold shoulder. Oh, its a story thats been retold so many times. It always seems to happen with my friends too. Some minx comes in thinks I'm a bad guy and steals my friends away. I'm never too worried though, you know why? Because, as I always say; "The best of friends will always come back to be your friend as if nothing happened". I'm just wondering if she's a real friend.
What really bothered me at the party wasn't them making out, wasn't them sleeping together.. It was what my 'friends' told me. That she dumped me because I was some dubious player, and that she's better off now. I wanted to set the record straight but no one would believe me. I'm no bad guy, I just went through a phase where I was high on myself and felt like having 5 girlfriends at once would be the ultimate challenge. Oh and the secret reason why I even bothered to break up with all of them? I actually do know the reason, of course I do; I may say that it was because it wasn't working out but I had reasons. I'm furious that no one will listen, and that everyone thinks I'm a bad guy. So for all five of those girls, I'll set the record straight here in print.
There were five girls in question. Anna, Brittany, Corill, Erin, and Kaitlyn. A pre-word if I may; I don't care if any of these girls find out the real reason I broke up with them, in fact I want them to know. I'm not a bad guy. As my bestest best friend can tell you, I'm no hound, I'm more like a sheep. I also had sound reasons to date them in the first place. Also, remember that I do plan to do a "Friend's Corner" biography section, so you'll learn more about all five eventually if you don't already know them. So without further stops, here goes.
Anna. Her and I have been close since Grade 11, and after I snatched her from her previous boyfriend I began to get to furiously high on my player-ness. So we had an on-and-off relationship since then, more than anything we just decided (or at least I did) that dating was just not in the stars for us.
Brittany. We weren't compatible, we didn't have anything in common and never talked about anything interesting at all. After she basically cheated on me, that was the easiest escape. After a certain event over the last spring break, I don't think we'll be talking ever again. I can't give details unless a majority of readers (like one lol) tells me to, but it was something that was not my fault (for the most part). I dated her because, well she actually wanted to date me (thats a first).
Corill. She was a fun person to be around, but much to quiet and much to dark for my taste. Also our relationship was public through the school thanks to her web of friends; so it became stressful for me and I basically broke it off to maintain my image. I dated her in the first place because she liked me, and I went after her because she had a super sweet body; of course I give no details unless someone wants to hear.
Erin. Hard to say why I even broke up with her. I honestly think I felt like I didn't deserve her. I didn't expect her to say yes when I playfully confessed my attraction to her and asked her out. All of a sudden, I was caught in a mess where I didn't want to hurt this girl whom I liked from the very beginning. I began to push her away in every single way possible. I pressured her to change, and if she did I pressured her to change back. I did so many things, that I just ended up hurting her anyways. I can't begin to explain to you why I liked her, so thats why my first "Friend's Corner" Biography will be about her.
Kaitlyn. This is simple. She was too "Perfect" (As Erin pointed out). The reason why she was so "Perfect" was because she was like me, and like charges repel. Yeah sure its cool that we're like baby soulmates and everything and we read eachother's minds; but that sure as hell doesn't lead to a healthy relationship. She was in so many ways like me, the attitude, the bitchiness, in fact the only thing that was different is that she has a lingerie model's body and sculpted face and I'm like Hunchback.
Get it? I'm not (really) a bad guy!
If only I could get my fucking message out to those that need to hear it. But hell, I'm a guy and we don't talk about this shit often; especially with our pride. I know one of my best friends reads this blog, and I'm sure as hell not going to bring it up and start talking about my love life. Sure I always say how awesome it would be to talk to someone about all this, but in reality I don't have the guts to talk about my feelings. Because its not 'manly', I know I'm sure as hell not 'manly' but I don't want to be labelled for it, so I might as well keep my pride.
Last important piece of information about the party; the reason why Erin's boyfriend doesn't seem to like me is... I can only say its because he sees the connection I (attempt to) make when talking with Erin. Oh and here's the icing. The guys name? Ryan. I know like 40 of them and 39 of them are dirt with relationships; and one of them reads this blog, hes basically my disciple and breathes awesome; so if anyone disses him I'd probably smash his brains out like that one guy who tried.
Oh. But that Ryan's kind of a moron too. ;P