I don't know, I couldn't think of a normal title.
Good morning to all of you delinquents, I am currently writing a blog so I don't get yelled at. Naw, I think its awesome when people tell me how awesome my post is, it makes me feel better than I already do. So I left off last time just before the weekend so we'll dive right into the events of the days.
Friday night was eventful to say the least, in fact so eventful that even though I wanted to go to sleep around midnight, I still ended up sleeping at my usual time. What happened? Argument. About? Same old tune... the past. I finally got it past to her though that the reason why everyone is taking my side now is because they know all the sides of the story thanks to my incredible narrative. Also, hiding behind excuses vs. trying to fix problems; people generally pick the good Samaritan. Also, for everyone out there; a piece of wisdom: It is not about what has happened to you, or what you have done that shapes who you are... But it is your actions from now on. Just because you've had a shit life or ruined lives, doesn't mean you're a bad person. Its what you do that makes you who you are, I chose to go fix my wrongs when others would of just forgotten about it. Anyways, went on and woke up the next morning at about 11:30, delightful as I was planning to go around noon anyways, well thanks to women being slow as hell, it was more like noon-ish.
The day I would rate as fun for sure, basically after my incredible sense of direction led us there without a hitch; I was greeted by Nathan's sister, to my surprise; and apparently her surprise too (good or bad? dunnoo), I really like feeling like no one expected their day to become twofold kickass. So whaddup? Games, was definitely awesome. I like zombie games, they're definitely the coolest thing ever. Played a healthy amount of CoD, in which I clutched almost every single round until Nathan pulled a bullshhh recovery 14 rounds in with the Thunder. Later chilled with some Left4Dead2, which I say was fucking fun as hell with a second person (no one else likes the fucking game but me lol...)
Next was super chill ass basement, which apparently was rigged up for the sister's party (I'm sorry I don't know her name LOL) but we sufficed. Between darts, air hockey, drums, guitar, and pool; it was pretty fun. I of course actually took a game of pool, which is amazing since I've never really played much. Of course that was ONE game out of like seven hahaha. It was a great break from gaming for sure, and I like nachos.
About the time Nathan's sister's fat friends showed up we chugged upstairs, gamed a bit til the VGA's were on. Now I wasn't really expecting to watch it because I usually don't watch TV but it was pretty cool. Elder Scrolls V was the highlight for me, I could of cared less about the rest though hahaha. Maybe Uncharted 3, but considering I was bored of 2 after a week of playing and platinum trophying; I don't think I'll be buying. Halfway through was Pizza, in which I waded through like 12 people to get. Not saying that there was that many, I mean hell for a party it was small.
Day was pretty cool I'll say however. Now for the day after, which I still think is today because I haven't slept. I had tickets for the hockey game, but no one to go with. Shame. So I sold it to a friend for 30 bucks for both. Now I have money for hanging out with Lynds tomorrow.. so yay! We're just going to Deerfoot Meadows so I don't think there will be much to do; and we'll probably only hang from about 12 to 3, which for me is actually kinda short. I'm pretty reluctant on inviting her back here actually, Anna is already on edge ready to kill me and her; and well, I don't know when she's off work, and that she has a fuckin' bloodhound nose for sniffing out the most random scents. Or maybe I'm making excuses. Oh well.
Christmas is getting closer with only about 11 more days. I've gotten a good amount of gifts from others, which honestly makes me feel slightly bad because I didn't have enough cash this year to get them anything nice. But I'll make it up to them I'm sure, my conscience wouldn't let me live peacefully if I didnt haha.
I know the poll hasn't ended for this week yet, but wow seven votes already; that trumped last weeks. Anyways; leave a comment or send an email to chris.musico.o@gmail.com or contact me in any other way if you have an idea for the next poll. I love doing these polls and would love to do more than one, because I often have a tough time picking a topic. Back in 3 days to talk about the results of this poll, keep voting! =)
Monday, December 13, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
Im in a good moodie doo.
Hello ladies and gents, how are you all doing tonight? Been a while since I've seen you last, but boy have I been a busy bee; busy busy busy! Anyways since I stopped posting last week it was just because I had an exam to prepare for, which I honestly felt was a trainwreck. I just basically lost hope when I came to the final response questions. *Ahem* "A student is kneeling in a 6x6 metre room, this room is completely empty and completely dark. In this incredibly special room a 2cm diameter steel ball is rolling around, it does not make ANY sound, not even when it bounces off the wall. a) Find the momentum of the ball. b) Find the position of the ball at any given time. c) Why can't you find both at the same time?" Bang, its over I didn't even do that question I was so confused.
Beyond that I finished up Module 7 of physics, and now have only ONE left, LIKE OMG I THINK IMA PASS. So I bought presents and wrapped them (which I suck at) already, there isn't much because I don't have a lot of money. But I told myself that I would make Christmas work, since no one else in my family will. They celebrate it, just horribly; in fact they don't bother with anything, buy their gifts last minute (gum packs, and chips anyone?), and also are not cheery at all. I'm nearly bursting at the seams with holiday spirit right now hahaha.
To add to that another surprise came in on Tuesday night. Lyndsey called, said she was in Calgary! So the next day we hung out at Chinook mall, in which is now completely renovated so its like it was completely new. I had a great day no doubt, of course I had to basically keep it to myself because no one around here cared lol. Anna just had a fucking fit because she was a girl, and albeit yeah she's really cool. Shes a hell of a lot more nice, gives me tons of attention, similar interests, and when she talks its about cool stuff or discussing something instead of complaining. Regardless of the fact that we didn't already work out once, and that one of my friends already tried to set me up with her; I might actually like her. But she lives in Europe, damn. Hahaha.
Basically though I can really say that I am enjoying December so far, much more than I ever had; and while my parents and everyone else in this house pisses me off, I can deal with it. How do they piss me off? I'll give one example of each, you'll probably think its stupid lol. Anyways, in exhibit one my parents constantly stream all the asian shit they watch, and if you guys know how fucking large a video is you'll know that it hogs bandwidth. Now I know I don't need much bandwidth to play CoD, I played MLG over a 128k connection for a while and it was bearable. But when I jump around the corner, unload 20 shots, die, then on his screen I see that I only shot 2? And my parents stream that fucking shit ALL DAY in 1080p as well. So my measly 5mbps (which is only average speed btw), fucking does shit all for my play. So I'm forced to play after midnight, like I played an hour ago; and I was relieved to see that I didn't really suck. Scores of about 4-16, now became roughly 30-3... Delightful.
So what else have I got planned? Well Lyndsey is going for a ski trip this weekend so I can't plan anything with her til' monday, but I do have plans with Anna and Nathan; and while I'm not sure what we're doing. I know I will be well fed, and I'm bringing my zombies where I go. Im sure we can think of something fucking cool to do, we can drive anywhere after all xP. If not, his basement is 50x more chill than the Foreman's basement. Also he has a cool cat, and I enjoy the spectacle of him and his sister attempting to kill eachother everytime I'm there. My favorite is when he said something jokingly insulting, and for some reason SHE got pissed and it ended in (as I recall) a nuclear explosion. Fun times.
So yeah, that's basically what you need to know to catch up to my deal, all in all; I think I need to find a way to have a better Christmas, any ideas?
Oh also, poll results are in, and I'm surprised I have so many votes, I usually only have 1 or 2; but I have 6..? I don't even think I know that many people who read this blog. There's like 4 or 5 of you and 2 of you don't like to do anything. But anyways, it was close! Remember it was, what would you like to see more of?
1. Advice and Philosophical Shizzzz
2. What I'm thinking and Rants, Witty lines that make you laugh, Reader involvement
3. Talk about girls even MORE
What's cool is that I can definetely follow through on that stuff, so get ready to see more of it! However whoever voted for the girls (kevin, who swears he didn't), I don't really have any current ways of meeting anyone; so it'll be tough (No job, no school, no club jumping lol).
Beyond that I finished up Module 7 of physics, and now have only ONE left, LIKE OMG I THINK IMA PASS. So I bought presents and wrapped them (which I suck at) already, there isn't much because I don't have a lot of money. But I told myself that I would make Christmas work, since no one else in my family will. They celebrate it, just horribly; in fact they don't bother with anything, buy their gifts last minute (gum packs, and chips anyone?), and also are not cheery at all. I'm nearly bursting at the seams with holiday spirit right now hahaha.
To add to that another surprise came in on Tuesday night. Lyndsey called, said she was in Calgary! So the next day we hung out at Chinook mall, in which is now completely renovated so its like it was completely new. I had a great day no doubt, of course I had to basically keep it to myself because no one around here cared lol. Anna just had a fucking fit because she was a girl, and albeit yeah she's really cool. Shes a hell of a lot more nice, gives me tons of attention, similar interests, and when she talks its about cool stuff or discussing something instead of complaining. Regardless of the fact that we didn't already work out once, and that one of my friends already tried to set me up with her; I might actually like her. But she lives in Europe, damn. Hahaha.
Basically though I can really say that I am enjoying December so far, much more than I ever had; and while my parents and everyone else in this house pisses me off, I can deal with it. How do they piss me off? I'll give one example of each, you'll probably think its stupid lol. Anyways, in exhibit one my parents constantly stream all the asian shit they watch, and if you guys know how fucking large a video is you'll know that it hogs bandwidth. Now I know I don't need much bandwidth to play CoD, I played MLG over a 128k connection for a while and it was bearable. But when I jump around the corner, unload 20 shots, die, then on his screen I see that I only shot 2? And my parents stream that fucking shit ALL DAY in 1080p as well. So my measly 5mbps (which is only average speed btw), fucking does shit all for my play. So I'm forced to play after midnight, like I played an hour ago; and I was relieved to see that I didn't really suck. Scores of about 4-16, now became roughly 30-3... Delightful.
So what else have I got planned? Well Lyndsey is going for a ski trip this weekend so I can't plan anything with her til' monday, but I do have plans with Anna and Nathan; and while I'm not sure what we're doing. I know I will be well fed, and I'm bringing my zombies where I go. Im sure we can think of something fucking cool to do, we can drive anywhere after all xP. If not, his basement is 50x more chill than the Foreman's basement. Also he has a cool cat, and I enjoy the spectacle of him and his sister attempting to kill eachother everytime I'm there. My favorite is when he said something jokingly insulting, and for some reason SHE got pissed and it ended in (as I recall) a nuclear explosion. Fun times.
So yeah, that's basically what you need to know to catch up to my deal, all in all; I think I need to find a way to have a better Christmas, any ideas?
Oh also, poll results are in, and I'm surprised I have so many votes, I usually only have 1 or 2; but I have 6..? I don't even think I know that many people who read this blog. There's like 4 or 5 of you and 2 of you don't like to do anything. But anyways, it was close! Remember it was, what would you like to see more of?
1. Advice and Philosophical Shizzzz
2. What I'm thinking and Rants, Witty lines that make you laugh, Reader involvement
3. Talk about girls even MORE
What's cool is that I can definetely follow through on that stuff, so get ready to see more of it! However whoever voted for the girls (kevin, who swears he didn't), I don't really have any current ways of meeting anyone; so it'll be tough (No job, no school, no club jumping lol).
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
AHHHCK. My mind is exploding.
I feel really tired right now, and even I myself am screaming at me "go to sleep!" but I'll tell you what, I can't for the life of me. I've been trying for the last hour and I don't know why I can't fall asleep. Even now I feel like I could just pass out while typing this blog, but you know what I still can't.
What am I thinking of, what is bothering me? Well, I keep remembering things that I didn't even know I would ever remember. They seemed so trivial at the time. Back in the day Erin used to come over to my house every week for guitar lessons, it was like a spiritual extension of our relationship (at least in my eyes). But even I knew it was dangerous, as she and I were no longer together. Remembering it now, we did a lot more than just the routine guitar lesson. Calling it back now I remember how simple things like playing a game or going to the mall, or teaching her bits of Kendo. Looking back now, I got scared, sad and other things that made me make poor decisions. I was starting to see that I had probably made the wrong decision, that choosing to break up with Erin was dumb. But I don't ever want to be wrong, so I pushed her away, our 6 hour long lessons turned into 2, then 1, then nothing. It wasn't ever about the money, it was about her.
If she could only read this now, what would she think. Well hell, I never really told her much of anything. But I'm not the kind of guy to easily accept my mistakes face to face. I guess my best chance is if she decided to read this lol. Oh, btw all of you who are still here and don't mind my whining. If you see a spelling mistake or a sentence that doesn't make sense. Its because I'm typing this with my eyes closed trying to sleep. Also I know that typing like this without my usual CAPITALIZATIONS and eccentric smileys and !'s that I might seem sad? I'm really not. I just remember it now and wish I could laugh with her about "the old times". But sheesh, if you guys want to know why she's been on my mind so much recently.. well let me spin you a short tale...
I know that Ryan will already know this, because back at the time we had just met and started talking about this stuff. Anyways, the reason its such a big deal is because that I had literally the biggest crush, now when I say this I seriously mean fanatical. As in I was giddy about her, I created quite a stir in my friends about this mysterious lady, and I even used my best friend as a spy. LOLOLOL sooooorrrry. I would constantly do things like poke him constantly to make a party (which I did before... because they're better than any I've ever been too lol) and make sure she was there. Everything. It took months before I almost worked up the actual courage to ask for her number hahaha. Yes you vultures (you know who you are) this was BEFORE that summer; I wasn't always THIS awesome. Anyways, I'm all bothered by her because I let her get away, in fact I pushed her away onto a steamboat. Beyond that, I didn't treat her nicely either, always intent on 'masking' my actual bipolar feelings. In the end I made a choice, and thats the choice I'm wondering what would of happened if I chose otherwise.
To make it clear to you guys. I don't really care about this anymore, kind of moving on with this post I guess. Its been a long time coming, but to be honest... If I ever saw her again, I doubt that I would talk to her anymore. If she wanted to talk to me, then cool; I'd like that. But hell, I'm done. And you guys all know who the real loser and winner is in all of this. After all, I AM the prize... the crown jewel! YES I AM. WOOOHOOO, my ego is through the roof once again. BUHAHAHAHAHAA.
So I missed my lunch with Kate, Dan and the gang because I slept in, so they just think I'm a huge douche now hahaha. But other than that I really just procrastinated all the damn day. I really should START thinking about my future, about my life. About the classes I'm taking RIGHT NOW. But hell, who cares hahahahaha.
What am I thinking of, what is bothering me? Well, I keep remembering things that I didn't even know I would ever remember. They seemed so trivial at the time. Back in the day Erin used to come over to my house every week for guitar lessons, it was like a spiritual extension of our relationship (at least in my eyes). But even I knew it was dangerous, as she and I were no longer together. Remembering it now, we did a lot more than just the routine guitar lesson. Calling it back now I remember how simple things like playing a game or going to the mall, or teaching her bits of Kendo. Looking back now, I got scared, sad and other things that made me make poor decisions. I was starting to see that I had probably made the wrong decision, that choosing to break up with Erin was dumb. But I don't ever want to be wrong, so I pushed her away, our 6 hour long lessons turned into 2, then 1, then nothing. It wasn't ever about the money, it was about her.
If she could only read this now, what would she think. Well hell, I never really told her much of anything. But I'm not the kind of guy to easily accept my mistakes face to face. I guess my best chance is if she decided to read this lol. Oh, btw all of you who are still here and don't mind my whining. If you see a spelling mistake or a sentence that doesn't make sense. Its because I'm typing this with my eyes closed trying to sleep. Also I know that typing like this without my usual CAPITALIZATIONS and eccentric smileys and !'s that I might seem sad? I'm really not. I just remember it now and wish I could laugh with her about "the old times". But sheesh, if you guys want to know why she's been on my mind so much recently.. well let me spin you a short tale...
I know that Ryan will already know this, because back at the time we had just met and started talking about this stuff. Anyways, the reason its such a big deal is because that I had literally the biggest crush, now when I say this I seriously mean fanatical. As in I was giddy about her, I created quite a stir in my friends about this mysterious lady, and I even used my best friend as a spy. LOLOLOL sooooorrrry. I would constantly do things like poke him constantly to make a party (which I did before... because they're better than any I've ever been too lol) and make sure she was there. Everything. It took months before I almost worked up the actual courage to ask for her number hahaha. Yes you vultures (you know who you are) this was BEFORE that summer; I wasn't always THIS awesome. Anyways, I'm all bothered by her because I let her get away, in fact I pushed her away onto a steamboat. Beyond that, I didn't treat her nicely either, always intent on 'masking' my actual bipolar feelings. In the end I made a choice, and thats the choice I'm wondering what would of happened if I chose otherwise.
To make it clear to you guys. I don't really care about this anymore, kind of moving on with this post I guess. Its been a long time coming, but to be honest... If I ever saw her again, I doubt that I would talk to her anymore. If she wanted to talk to me, then cool; I'd like that. But hell, I'm done. And you guys all know who the real loser and winner is in all of this. After all, I AM the prize... the crown jewel! YES I AM. WOOOHOOO, my ego is through the roof once again. BUHAHAHAHAHAA.
So I missed my lunch with Kate, Dan and the gang because I slept in, so they just think I'm a huge douche now hahaha. But other than that I really just procrastinated all the damn day. I really should START thinking about my future, about my life. About the classes I'm taking RIGHT NOW. But hell, who cares hahahahaha.
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